There are some good things and bad things about having Cerebral Palsy. For example, because I have Cerebral Palsy, I know a lot about myself and have learned a lot, but also, I talk like I’m fucking drunk and people don’t understand what I’m talking about. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t want people to feel sorry for me. My cerebral palsy will not define me or hold me back from achieving anything that I want to do in my life. I am more than simply my disability. I am a sister, an auntie, and a friend. I am someone who can do anything she sets her mind to.
I love my life and I have accomplished a lot of really amazing things in my life. I won’t ever be sorry for anything that I have done. I’m a blogger and a writer. I blog about things that are important to me and also things that I have done. I write short stories about things that I know very well, and that is people who have a disabilities. I’m not an existential writer but I am not going to stop writing. I started blogging in 2010 as just something new to do. I was creating a space for myself to be open and honest about my feelings and experiences. Blogging is something that brings me happiness, and lets me focus on my mental health by airing all my shit out. I enjoy the sense of community that it brings, and also that there is a chance that someone reading could relate to what I am going through, and see that they aren’t alone.
But there is something inside me that I am feeling very strongly and I need to write about it. It is how people see people who have a disabilities like me. if they only took the time to get to know me, they would see that there is more to me. but they only want to see what they want to see. I feel like people don’t give me a chance by actually getting to know who I am as a person. If they did, they would see that there is a lot more to me than just my disability. Everyone has things that they cannot change about themselves, that they have to learn to adapt to and live with. For me, this is my disability. It is not something that I chose, but instead something that I must live with everyday. I am not defined by my disability, but it is a part of who I am.
My experience with cerebral palsy is something that has good parts but also bad parts. I know that sometimes it can be a little hard to understand when I am speaking as a result of it, but I wish that people would try harder to meet me where I’m at. It drives me crazy when people ignore me and talk to whoever I am with because I am perfectly capable. I don’t like when I’m out in public and people stare at me. I understand to a point that not everyone has experience meeting people with disabilities, but I am still a human being.
Now that I have finished my race, and don’t have anything planned in the near future, I am hoping to dedicate more of my time to writing and blogging. I want to continue to educate people about what life is like as someone with a disability, and also share my thoughts and feelings. I want to create my short stories as a more relatable and meaningful way to share my experiences, and the experiences of other people with disabilities and what they face on a daily basis. To me, writing and blogging are important pieces of my life, and I enjoy educating others about what it is like to be in my shoes.
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