I have been a blogger for a while now and I have written a couple of powerful blog posts here on “Wheels About”. However, today I am sitting in Starbucks and I wonder “What would my life be like it I didn’t have disabilities”. That would mean my parents would have three normal kids. Would we be close? Don’t get me wrong I am happy with my life and proud of all I’ve accomplished. I am so grateful to be living with my best friend, and I’m writing a lot even though I’m not an amazing writer. Sometimes when it’s quiet and I’m lost in my thoughts, I feel like I should be doing more with my life. I don’t think about being married or having a family like my sisters do… But I do want to make a name for myself. I’m really inspired by Rick Hansen’s work, I’d like to make an impact like his someday.
My disability affects all aspects of my life but all I can do is be myself and handle things as they come. When I talk to people they don’t know what I’m saying because I sound like a fucking drunk and it sounds funny!! It’s true and I can’t lie about that, you can ask my family and friends who know me very well! Sometimes I wish I didn’t talk like a fucking drunk and sounded like a normal person instead.
Sometimes I feel like I lack in cognitive abilities and if I had more brains, maybe I’d be interested in college or university. After that, maybe I could get a full time job but would I be able to handle it? Would my heart be in it?
I want to do more with my life and be a bigger advocate for people with disabilities. I’ve done a lot of cool stuff like jump off the Auckland Tower in New Zealand, and travel the world. I’ve also done my fair share of stupid stuff that was funny at the time.
I know it’s common for people to be prejudice or make assumptions based on my wheelchair, so hopefully my advocacy will help “normalize” life with a disability. I have an idea to write a screenplay that’s a spin off of the show “Friends”; about 5 friends with different kinds disabilities. We’ll see if I can get that idea off the ground or not. Why not? I have nothing to lose. Maybe I could get more representation of people with disabilities on the big screen.
